Things I say to myself

Last night we received a notice that my friend was missing in action. We were all told about it together. The girls wailed and clinged to each other the boys resorted to anger. I looked away than I just left the room. I had some summer homework that I started to work on. That's when M came in and yelled at me. He asked me how I could be so cold. How I could not react to it. How can I let it not affect me because N (guy who committed died) was closest to me. He than fell to his knees and started to sob asking me how I keep it together. It made me think of some ways to keep it together. I would never tell him it, but I'll tell you guys. Sort of the saying "give a man a mask to hide behind and he'll tell the truth". Anyway here they are!
When Shit hits the fan or I feel like breaking down this is what I do
Things I say to myself,
Everything is going to work out
Keep going
If you step down now you can never get back up
No one will ever see you the same way
Stay strong
Your better than this
Get up
What would happen if someone could see through your eyes, what would they think?
It's a play your an actress don't fall from character
Stand your ground
Survive Today- I have this written into my left ankle
Things I do,
Smile
Laugh
if I'm about to cry I press my tongue to the roof of my mouth
imagine how "Sempurna" would react
When I feel like giving up,
Write on this blog
Listen to music
Tell myself if I get through this set I'll never have to do one again
One of my favorite songs is never good enough by Rachel Ferguson