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7/24/12

I am so disgusted with my self I went to a camp for about  a week and guess what? I'm fucking 153.2!! What the hell!! All that work for nothing I can't believe how fast I put on weight.

7/17/12

Sorry I haven't been on real recently I've been super busy! Well I sorta hell on my ass will my work out schedule but I'm just going to carry on as plan and do what my little black book tells me to do! Oh btw I think everyone should get one of these.  Ok so take a plain notebook and put dates on every other page starting today. Now write what you are going to eat that the day/ the exercises you want to do/ your weight ideas, and ect. It works great for me!! You also don't get traped in this "starting over loop" Well I'm going to try and get some sleep. I've been really tiered lately. I'm writting in the "skinny girl diet" Cause I'm not ready for the ABC just yet XD

Ok so I joined a swim class that is suppose to meet every day at 10:30 so I woke at 7:30 today and mozied around until 8:30 then I saw how long it was going to take to get to the pool it said 2 hours on foot! So I freaked out got a ride and ended up an hour early well for some reason the class never got called and I waited tell 11 and then tried to get a ride and finally got one at 12:30 so ya I just wasted half my day and I'm tierd so I'm going to try to go to bed.

Day three

HEy guys it's Sunday so that means I get to remeasure all my body parts yay!!!! Oh, guess what ladies? I weighed myself this morning I am a whopping 33.6 LB! That is wayyy below my goal and is well on my way to my next goal, 130 by next Sunday. My sleep patterns are so destroyed cause of Paul. I talk to him every night :) We have a skype-mance and I hate it. It started physical just physical. I was happy with that, but slowly we started talking about each others personalities instead of each others bodies. Today we exchanged I love you. He said it first and I got scared. I'm terrified of dating him and I'm terrified of him leaving. Some times I can just sit there and stare at him. He is my rock.

He lives so far away exactly 12 hours away if I don't stop. I feel like all my emotions are in a bucket that people keep kicking. Being alone is so much easier, I didn't care about anyone else. Now I want to date him, but I don't, I want him here, but I don't think I could handle being with him everyday. I don't know my feelings anymore! I think I'm going to just disconnect myself from this relationship. Ya a wall will fit quite well between us.

I'm going to have to work out twice today cause I was feeling like Sh*t yesterday and I didn't do anything. Oh well >.< I'll tell you about it. Ok knew goals for next week. Weight 130, Mile 8 minutes.

Day 2

Last night was so great do you guys remember my long distance friend Paul? Well we skyped lat night from 10 to 7 and it was great. We just talked and looked at each other and looked at each other's bodies.  He told me that he was falling for me and this caught me off guard, really off guard, and I didn't know what to say I wanted to tell him I loved him, but yet I knew I was incapable of love and I didn't want to hurt him. I'm so emotionally unstable that I think dating me would only cause him troubles.

To move on there were two cats fighting outside my window, it kind of scared me. I checked my weight at 5 a.m. and I'm 134 LB!!! So happy that means I meet my goal as long as I don't screw this up. I'll post my work out and food states later. I just woke up around noon. God I really do care for him to think that he might want a relationship with me!?!? With me?!?! It's just mind bogoling.

I'm sorry guys I totally f***** up the ABC Challenge new day 1

I'm starting over again sorry guys
Ramen 380 calories
Protein shake 105
total 485
I will also be starting pushup challenge, Sit up challenge, squat challenge and pull up challenge. I have 33 days until school start and I want to be able to run atleast a 7 minute mile. So here is my run info
Tread run
Time 32 min
Calories 380 (this was my goal)
Incline 0
distance 2.46
Carbs 66.6
20 minutes at 5 miles an house and 12 minutes a 4 miles an hour
Fastest mile 12 minutes.
I know I have about a month to shave off 5 ENTIRE minutes but I'm going to make everyday count
Next is my push ups (yes I did do them on my knees)
14
18
14
14
14
Squats
13
16
10
10
20
I've compleated the first day of the navy work out!! Yes I feel so accomplised
I've done everything... now what? Clean my room? hm....

2nd day

Well today is day two!! Yay :) I shelled out 310 calories on a stupid snadwhich this morning so I'm thinking of have having three egg whites 50 calories for lunch and two pieces of toast for diner (95)