HEy guys it's Sunday so that means I get to remeasure all my body parts yay!!!! Oh, guess what ladies? I weighed myself this morning I am a whopping 33.6 LB! That is wayyy below my goal and is well on my way to my next goal, 130 by next Sunday. My sleep patterns are so destroyed cause of Paul. I talk to him every night :) We have a skype-mance and I hate it. It started physical just physical. I was happy with that, but slowly we started talking about each others personalities instead of each others bodies. Today we exchanged I love you. He said it first and I got scared. I'm terrified of dating him and I'm terrified of him leaving. Some times I can just sit there and stare at him. He is my rock.
He lives so far away exactly 12 hours away if I don't stop. I feel like all my emotions are in a bucket that people keep kicking. Being alone is so much easier, I didn't care about anyone else. Now I want to date him, but I don't, I want him here, but I don't think I could handle being with him everyday. I don't know my feelings anymore! I think I'm going to just disconnect myself from this relationship. Ya a wall will fit quite well between us.
I'm going to have to work out twice today cause I was feeling like Sh*t yesterday and I didn't do anything. Oh well >.< I'll tell you about it. Ok knew goals for next week. Weight 130, Mile 8 minutes.
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