Day five

Well I woke up at 12:00 because I was up late last night. I don't know what happened. I wanted to feel again. I grab the razor and recut the design on my wrist. It felt great. It seems like i'm either cutting myself or stuffing my face. One of the longest stretches I've ever had with out cutting ended last night. I also binged and gained 1.8 pounds. Ya that'ts right I'm 139.2. I can't believe it! God I feel so sick with myself.  I can't dwell on this to much. I have a pool party to go to and I need clever ways to hid my SF scars. Today I have 100 calories. So i'm not going to eat anything until later tonight where I'll have.. I don't know maybe I just won't eat today. I know I deserve it. Well happy Friday everyone.